Hello 18.

Today I turned 18.
:)
My life is about to begin
I am so excited!
My tatoo time will come along shortly

Everyone keeps telling me all the new events I get to participate in and thats all great but
what is making me the most happy is I am LEGAL! I will be living a new life soon and turning 18 is just the beginning. To tell you the truth I was nervous and sad to turn this age at first cause it made me realize that I am about to be out of the place where I have lived my whole life. I will be leaving the people that mean so much to me but I realized its life, it happens. But as of now I have time on my side and Im gonna use it to my advantage!
I thank everyone for the birthday wishes.

Giving up is not an option

I will not give up!
I am going to get out of here.
I am going to bring my scores up.
Im going to leave and live my dream.
determination and patience is all I need.
And I will continue to reach for my personal goal and
one day I will be where I want to be.
I will not be left behind.

Wonderland

Wonderland seems to be not as far away as imagined. My mind has created its own wonderland ever since I was little. Many wonder what thoughts and dreams pop in to my head but if I let the world in on my wonderland , well then it wouldnt seem as significant as it is to me. Wondering does the mind good. I wonder all the time. I travel in my mind to high and low places searching for my next idea or dream. All the elements of a good show included. When I am not speaking or spacing out, you shall now know why. Its not that I am sad or mad...its just that I am expanding my horizons and thinking through life with the help of creativity.. I encourage all of you to explore your mind,create your own wodnerland, because when times get rough and you feel like theres nowhere you can go..you will have Wonderland to get lost in..and with imagination ..wonderland wil be the place to go.

Refresh

One of my main worries in life has finally ceased and the peace has been brought in. I finally gaiend the courage to confront the issue and regain the relationship with my best friend. We both realize that the end could be upon us and we need to fight against it because we have no desire to be apart. We may be apart in distance but not in heart. We've agreed to make the most of the days we have left together we have in person and no one will get in between the power of our friendship. We know that there is no way we can stop time but we can use the time to our advantage which is why we are drawing each other closer together. Before the peace increased, I was startign to spiral down into a stage of life that I do not wish to enter but the power of our frienship has risen me out of the hole i was knee deep in. I thank her so much for helping me through life and without her i do not really know how my life wound end up. Im not as alone as I have felt reccently.
However... My heart is urging for true love.... I cant stop it...but Im being held back...I hope soon I will be released from this spell.
Hide and seek is a fun game to play but not fun to live.